You are mine !

Disclaimer: Some adult contents. If you are below 18, please don't read. Leave. But if you are in love then below 18 is not a criteria. Go on !

 

If i hold your lovely hands tonight, 

would you doubt the intentions in my mind ?

would you shy away from my touch, 

if i told you, touching you is not enough ....

If i kneel, and ask you for a dance, 

would you rather, take a defiant stance ?

or would you smile, and take my arm, 

sweeped and swayed, by my unpolished charm ?

Would you resist, if i took your waist, 

and wrapped my arms around your stage ?

If you feel my breath on your skin, 

would you blush, and take me in ?

If i whispered in your ear, 

would you smile, and pull me near ?

Would you tremble if i touched your eyes ?

Would you find the love that's too hard to hide ?

If i touched your lips with mine , 

would you fear then, crossing the line ?

If i ran my fingers down your back ,

would you snug your nose on my neck ?

If i held you in my arms tight,

would you, please tell me ,  be mine tonight ?

I can tell you I love you a thousands times again , 

All these years , not a moment in vain.... 

Would you remember those times if i made you think,

and told you our stories and gave you some hints?

Would you remember, that this in not the first time, 

that i hold you in my arms , and tell you , you are mine.....

U R so away....

After a long gap, my feelings about u (someone special) is encrypted here (in a form of poem). Though, I deserve that (that u r away from me) I wanna be with you. Just wanna be with you.

[copyright reserved for Mukesh]

[Purely written by Me]

You are so away.....That Your smell no more tingle senses,

Though in a crowd often it seems

You are just around...

But I know you are away...

Light years away,

More away than I

Ever expected you to be.

Care- I see it everywhere,I never wished to have it so much.

I don't like them to care,

Yet they do, but You don't .

Its just like I am in the mid ocean:

"water water everywhere, but not a drop to drink"!!

They swear to follow me everywhere,

You too did, but you broke the promise.

But I don't care whether they'll keep it or not.

Night knows the pain,

Pillows know the tears,

They cannot consolate, they know.

You can consolate, but you don't know.

Lag jaa gale....

Well.... Itz been a long time since I last blog. Actually, in the recent past I don't remember that how many times I had clicked on the "new post". Everytime I cliked, think for a long long hours and at last abort the operation. Why ? I don't know !
Appended here is the song which is having a great impact on me. It seems the hangover (caused by this song) is still there. This song reminds me of "the endless talkings", "the most beautiful yet painful journey" and lots of emotional phases of my life. Here it goes..........

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Lag jaa gale ki phir ye haseen raat ho na ho        
shayad phir es janam me mulaquat ho na ho
Lag jaa gale.........


Humko mili hai aaj ye ghadiya naseeb se
jee bhar ke dekh leejeye humko kareeb se
phir aapke naseeb me ye raat ho na ho
shayad phir es janam me mulaquat ho na ho
Lag jaa gale..............


Paas aaeyiye ki hum nahi aayenge baar baar
Baahein gale me daal ke hum ro le zaarjan
Aankhon se phir ye pyar ki barsaat ho na ho
Shayad phir es janam me mulaquat ho na ho
Lag jaa gale ki phir ye haseen raat ho na ho
Lag ja gale...............

तुम

Disclaimer: Once again that fuckin "something" has worked ! And once again here it goes.......... 

"मेरी वीरान ज़िन्दगी को, खुशनुमा बनाते गए तुम

मेरी खवाबो को हकीकत का रूप देते गए तुम

मेरी चाहतो को नया आयाम देते गए तुम

मेरे हर कदम पर मेरा साथ देते गए तुम

मेरी हर बुरायिओं को अच्छाइयों में बदलते गए तुम

मेरी हर भावना को समझते गए तुम 

मेरी हसरतों को पूरा करते गए तुम

और अब मुझे यु ही मझधार में तनहा छोड़ गए तुम !"

वीरान: Silence, आयाम: Definition, मझधार: Mid of the way

I love you !

I think, something is there which is forcing me to compose all these fuckin poems. Some sort of feelings. some sort of thoughts. something. some.....thing....!

Disclaimer : If you are going to "read" this, then stop. Don't proceed. You are always welcome to feel the words, thoughts and feelings which it gives.              
                                                                                                                              

purely written and composed by me

Do you think about me,

And what we had?
Do you miss us hanging out,
And everything we talked about?
All the times we spent together,
Everyday of that summer,
Are still on my mind,
I think about you all the time.
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you ever wish you were mine?
What more can I do,
To let you know I still love you?
Cant you see,
When you look at me,
All the feelings I have for you?
I will never let them go.
If it weren't for you,
I wouldn't be here right now,
I'm holding on because of you,
I love you more than you know.

 

I Miss You !

" Missing someone can turn from 'pain' to 'pleasure' if you get to know that the other person is missing you too".

This SMS was received by me at 11: 43 pm on 14 Sep 09. That time it felt like a negative SMS. Why not ? Yes it was ! I was a bit upset coz the sender of this SMS was very very special. If  I would use "is" in place of "was" which is used in da last line then I am not wrong. Yes, She is very very special to me now also. And She will be......! Forever, Forever and Forever.................!

 Now, the tragedy is I am really in confusion between "pain" and "pleasure". Because, there is absolutely no sign of you. Dark Silence. Nil Activity. Nil Reaction. Nothing at all.
But, hey you I am missing you a lot.

Here is another piece of writing from me, in your rembererance. The thoughts, the feelings, everything that u can make a sense from the undermentioned words is purely dedicated to you.

Here it goes..........

Have you ever bothered to realize

how much you mean to me?

I care so much for you inside

and miss you so deeply.

I sometimes sit for hours

Just to hear from you

And when you never come on

I’m unsure what to do

I lay awake in bed sometimes

With you stuck in my head

Sometimes I question your love for me

Sometimes I walk at night

Just to gaze at a lonely star

Sometimes I fall to tears

Because you are so far

And every now and then

When I do speak to you

I always get worried

Incase you say we’re threw

And do you ever wonder

Just what I’m doing to

And do you know

Just how much I think of you

Because if tomorrow doesn’t come

And I haven’t spoke to you

how will you ever know?

Just how much I miss you.

I Would Wish !

Upto what extent one can wish ? We have no control over our "wishing". Knowing full well that my wish gonna never to be completed, I can't control myself from wishing something. Some..........thing.

This hasbeen exclusively written by me. The words, the thoughts, the feeling is dedicated to someone very special. I hope she will go through this post at least once. I don't even know that she uses to read my post or not. But a kind of hope is there that, Shayad padh hi leti hogi yaar !

It is totally dedicated to u, my love. Here it goes...........

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

I would wish..................

I would wish, you come back in my life,

and you make my life alive !

Really, I would wish...............!

"I Am Not Yours"

REALLY MY HEART IS SAYING THAT "I AM NOT YOURS"


 (This is for the one who is very close to my heart and a very special one for me. Really, I love you a lot.)



I don't know why but now a days my heart is saying that "I am not yours". Its nothinng like that I don't love you. I really love you a lot. I love you from the innermost core of my heart and nobody can take place of you. (In my point of view "love" refers to the point no.8 of my blog " I hate myself........") But now a days i think i am not the right choice for you. I m nothing in front of you coz the standard you have got, i m nothing in front of that. Irrespective of our future I will be loving you till da last breath of my life or even after death.

purely written and composed by me:

                                                          

I am not yours, not lost in you,

Not lost, although I long to be

Lost as a candle lit at noon,

Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

I am not yours, I am not yours

Although I love you, Although I love you

You love me, and I find you still

A spirit beautiful and bright,

Yet I am I, who long to be

Lost as a light is lost in light.

I am not yours, I am not yours

Although I love you, Although I love you

Oh plunge me deep in love, put out

My senses, leave me deaf and blind,

Swept by the tempest of your love,

A taper in a rushing wind.

I am not yours, I am not yours

Although I love you, Although I love you