Ohh Shit !

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It was a night of ecstasy. Of Fantasies. The cool wind entered the room through the window. Today itself he edited his playlist in the music player and changed the shuffle on from off. And here it was, the song 'Baanho ke darmiyan do pyar...' playing softly in the background. She was in his arms. So firmly. So deeply. So lovely. She was the most b'ful gal of this planet. (He believed) Wat a pleasure ! Wat a feeling ! Wat a feeling to have the most b'ful gal in ur arms. So close. And She is all urs. For this wonderful night. And for the rest of the life. Her scattered hairs were lying on his face. She rolled herself more tightly in his arms. He smootched her. He was going mad. And She too. (He believed) He wanted to have her. He wanted to have her this time and for the rest of his life. The things were goin beyond his control. Meanwhile the phone rang, 'Excuse me darling, u have a text message'. Ohh Shit ! Fuck ! He just clicked on to see the msg. It was :
I LOVE U JEE...
GOOD MORNING...
SUBAH HO GAYI HAI, AB UTH V JAYIYE.
He smiled. It was real She. All that was a dream. A beautiful dream. A romantic dream. A sensational dream. He wants the dream to be a truth as soon as possible.

Happy B'day !

# The way U used to say 'kya ho gaya baccha' when I looked tensed.
# The way U prepared "Kheer" that day for me. Even u were knowing how to make it though u called up mom just for ensuring a gud Kheer preparation. Really, it was the tastiest kheer I have ever had.
# The way u dressed up in suits most of the time, just for me. Even though u feel cofortable in western outfits.
# The way U slept that day. Head on my shoulder.
# The way we listned that song together for the last time. Hands on hands.
# The way................

Just missing all those ways. Itz her birthday today. This page is a good friend of mine since quite a few months. I share almost everything here. A very Happy B'day ma'm. Hope u r rocking it in one of the best B-Schools in India.
A very good life ahead !

Aapki PRATIKSHA mein !

He loved her. He loved the way she texted him throughout the clock. He loved the way she used to text him with her sleepy eyes in the late nights. He loved the way she text the scores of the cricket match (Any Nation Vs Ind) when He is not able to get in touch with the match. {Though, he expects from her to text  the scores of Any Nation Vs Any Nation cricket match}. He loved the way she understand him too well. He loved the way she knows what He wants to say, before he says. The previous 20 days was his good 20 days. {Though, it came after a too long pause}. They met on a regular intervals. They always talked about each other likes, dislikes, music, movies, families, family values, and tv serials too. {Though, he hated the last one}. Some of the times they talked about their future life. And after those times or moments they get tensed. And after a pause, they both decide chodo ye sab baatein, kuch aur baat karte hain na. Day before yesterday He asked two questions to her. The first one was, "Is Love possible between two friends" ? The second was, "Is Friendship possible once Love happens" ? He was satisfied with the answer of the first question but what for the second ? What for the second ???? Though it was love between them, they both knew it but never let it express. But, why ??? Who knows ! Yesterday was the day, He asked straightway "Tumhe mujse pyar hai " ? She was shocked by the promptness of the question. But thank to the Almighty, She nooded in a Yes mood. He was more than happy to notice this. He could not sleep yesterday night coz of the happiness, joy and something something.....
Today is the day he is feeling completely blank.  Too much happines followed by a complete blank. It is He. He is like that only. To say, absolute Random ! Though, today he was having a cause for the blankness. She was out of the town from today.{And to say wat a place that is where mobile networks even not working}. They can't talk. Can't text. And wat a bloody situation this is, that when she'll be back, he'll be out of the town. When he will come back again, he himself doesn't know. When they are going to meet again, they doesn't know. And That is Life ! Immediate Happiness and........ ! Lots of Love in a moment and Lots of Missing in next moment.

Aapki PRATIKSHA mein........ !

Life.52

Inspired by mangoman's post

That study table. Those silly jokes. That unexpected seperation. Those four years. Orkut. A phone call. Nice-talking-after-a-long-time message. Proposal. Accepetence. Endless talkings. Chattings. 1st date. Smiles. Happiness. Love. A trip to heaven. Romance. Coefee at Comesum. Railway station. That see off. Most Painful journey. Misunderstandings. Small Fights. Formalitites. Next meeting. Changed Behaviour. Last coeffe at footpath. The most beautiful yet painful journey. Phone calls. Fights always. Irritations. A phone call. Break up. I-am-always-there-for-you message. Nil correspondence. One-sided chats. Empty beer bottles. Ciggerette butts. Hangovers. Lots of blogging. Memories. Wet pillows. A phone call. A book. 2nd attempt. A hope. Failed. Illusions. Un-fulfilled dreams. Lots of missing. Life. You.

[Dedicated to the one who is an integral part of me]

Love brings PAIN...

Note : This is the continued part of the previous post (something far than love ; a fiction). I am finding it difficult to use the word "them" for them. (He, She). So, I decided to continue it with "I" (in place of He) and "Anushka" (in place of She). Please don't link this name with anything else. This is a pure imaginary name for this fiction.

Sometimes, Shaking hands is not enough to fill the distance but wiping tears always do wonders. Sometimes Sharing & Caring is not enough but a fight can do miracles. And same happened with us too. (yeah, we had a fight last night for a silly thing). After that fight, I and Anushka realized that we come a long way in such a short span of time. We used to chat for hours, no matters if we skipped our meals for that...No matter if we had to sacrifice our sleeps for our assignments which we were never able to complete on time. BUT THE CHAT MUST GO ON....Earlier, I used to think that I have nothing to do, so lets chat with Anushka. But later I came to know that, I don't do anything as I want to chat with her.
We used to talk about TV Serials ( Though, i am a strong hater of the fuckin TV Serials, but when it comes in between our chatting, don't know why I enjoyed it too), our likings, dislikings (She was always keen for it), our families, and our thoughts on some serious matter. And yeah, everyday we asked to each other about his/her day. We criticized each other, in fact we insulted each other and none of us minded to accept our shortcomings and we changed a lot too. And one day.....

Me: There ?
Anushka: Yeah
Me: I like you.
Anushka: What is this ?
Me: the truth
Anushka: u knw that I don't lyk such jokes.
Me: nd u knw that I don't crack such jokes.
Anushka: R U crazy ? Forget it... Itz not possible.
Me: Don't YOU lyk me ?
Anushka: Of Course, I do but only as a friend, nothing more than that. (I know she lied)
Me: Then why do we talk daily ? Talk to me, just lyk another friend.
Anushka: OK, as u say.
Me: Since today, we should talk on alternatives day.
Anushka: That too is more than necessary. We shall talk on weekends only.
Me: No, u can't do this.
Anushka: I can n u knw it.
Me: Why r u behaving so weired ?
Anushka: Bye. I shall talk to u on saturday, I think. Right now, I have some work. 
Me: I know that u don't have any work now.
Anushka: .............
Me: Are u dere ?
Anushka: ............
Me: Reply yaar. I knw u r reading my messages. Reply...
Anushka: .......
Me: Ok Bye. Once u have decided then u will not reply. I knw, I have to wait for Saturday.

I was not knowing that saying "I LIKE YOU" will change her mood like this, and she will react in this manner. Someone inside me (who always try to make my life complex) always knew that it would ended up like this but this would happen so soon... I never expected......
That night I could not sleep. I was hurt (though, it was a secondary reason) but I was thinking that might be she was right. She wants to be only a friend to me and nothing else. Then why, she talks with me daily. why we skipped our meals just for chatting with each other. why we sacrifice our sleeps. I think these questions wandering like anything in my mind all the night. (and, this was the main reason which was not letting me to sleep).
(To be continued........)